Chris Rice wrote...
I get so clumsy
I get so foolish
I get so stupid
And then I feel so useless
But You’re sayin’ You love me
And You’re still gonna hold me
And that You wanna be near me
‘Cause You’re makin’ me holy
You’re still makin’ me holy, yeah
"Clumsy" from Deep Enough to Dream Copyright 1986 Clumsy Fly Music
I think it's interesting that a guy who is obviously fulfilling the call of God on his life would, like the rest of us, feel useless at times. The good news is, just as the song says, God still loves and cherishes us regardless of how clumsy, foolish, or stupid we are, and, even though we feel useless, He does not consider that we are.
Maybe you are in that place right now. Perhaps you feel like you are useless to God or your time has passed. Sometimes we take a turn in life that requires stepping back a bit from actively using our giftings and then it can begin to seem like they just don't exist anymore, or worse yet, we actually never had them in the first place. I have to admit, I don't feel like I ever hit my stride. When considering the "typically" latter phase of my life I can't help but look back from time to time and wonder if I ever did anything with it. That's not healthy. The truth is, if we endeavor to live in God's will, be a doer of the Word (James 1), and seek Him before all else (Matt 6:33), the worth of our life will be a given. God, who makes miracles out of nothing, gives us hope when we are hopeless. Not only should we not discount the influence we have had through our lives and giftings in the past we should never discount the possibilities that exist in what God can do with us in the future.
Numbers 23:19 says that "The gifts and callings of God are without repentence". Otherwise, what God has gifted you with He will never take away. Many years ago, a man who was a good friend and a spiritual father to me, related how God had given him the gift of healing. He said one day he had an opportunity, and leading from the Spirit, to pray for a child who was sick or had some malady, and he didn't. He said he felt from that time, because he refused to respond to God's call to use that gift, it was taken away, and he never operated in it again. I think that's sad. Whether it's a spiritual gift like healing, or a spiritual gift like helps. Whether evangelism, or encouragement. Whether giving or guiding. The gifts and callings of God are without repentence, He will never take them away. If we refuse to use them, we just cheat ourselves, and others, out of opportunity for blessing and growth. If we start thinking that because we messed up and didn't respond to the leading of the Spirit, God isn't going to use us that way again, we will never respond again. It isn't that God won't use us, it's that we've convinced ourselves that He won't. We're no longer listening, and He's not going to force us (I Kings 19:12).
So what do we do now? We go back to God.
Mark 4:2 - 20 tells us that if we are to understand how the Kingdom of God works we must understand the principle of seedtime and harvest. In verses 30 - 32 He says that the Kingdom of God operates like a seed, in that, you plant it, it grows, although you really can't see it, and it matures, ready for harvest. We need to put that principle into operation in our own lives. Planting, watering, caring for, and then harvesting the gift of God in us. In many ways, that's what this blog is for me. I am planting my gifting, not storing it up or hiding it. I'm expecting that God will do His part in the growth process, facilitating my growth, and perhaps others as well. As has been said so many times, if you keep doing what you've always done, you aren't likely to see a change. So I encourage you today, whatever your gifting is, plant a seed. Just a small one. No one else can plant that particular seed. It's only yours to give. It may not seem like much, but it's more than you think.
Kenneth Copeland quoted his hairdresser recently saying that you can count the seeds in an apple, but you can't count the apples in a seed. That is profound! think about the little things you can do to affect the lives of those around you as opposed to the things you didn't do in the past. Avoid the old "what if". Embrace God's "WHAT IF!"
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